Through the purification fires -Testimony: Christiena Boshoff (Lastrumpet08) – March 09, 2012
From 2004 Jesus put me through the purification fires. I did not understand it at that time, that He was preparing me for His Kingdom purpose and for service in His Kingdom. I do not know how to describe it, but it was not pleasant at all during that time. It was going on for many months. For days I could not eat, I ate very little but I was busy with Jesus most of the time, spending much time with Him, praying, seeking Him, asking Him if there was anything I had to make right, repent of. Jesus let the Holy Spirit Fire cleanse me through and through. I had to cooperate no matter how difficult it was some days. For weeks I could not leave our apartment, I could not. Nothing in the world was pleasant to me, I had no desire for worldly things. It felt like a fire was burning inside of me. Jesus comforted me all the time and taught me Himself. He would say to me in that time, things like “Never give up.” “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” “Nothing will hurt or harm you.” “Stay steadfast.” “Don’t give up.” “If you withdraw My soul will have no pleasure in you.” “Endure, press on harder.” “I am always with you.” “I will not fail you.” “I am in control.” “I love you and I care for you.” And many more things. I endured and pressed on during that time, it was not easy times, but it was good for me.
During that same time, one day I was standing in front of the TV, it was on the weather channel, I was watching the weather and I asked Jesus if there was anything in our place that was not pleasing to Him? Next thing the TV popped, it went dead. I told my husband what had happened. He took the TV went out and threw it in the dumpster. That was the end of TV in our home. That left us with even more time to spend with Jesus to keep our focus on Him and not get distracted.
Jesus also revealed many things about the future to me in dreams and visions. Jesus also revealed Himself to me a few times during that time. He was always there for me, to help and to sustain me. He never left me nor forsook me. There was also a time of silence, when I was tested to see if I would continue and not give up even when I did not hear His voice, had no dreams or visions. I just prayed more, was determined, persistent and continued to seek Jesus and told Him that I love Him and want to do His will.
During that time the devil attacked me. I will share my two healing miracles separately also. He was really trying to kill me. One day it was so bad, he tried to choke me, it felt like I could not breathe. I could not get any sound out, but I gave one shout, My husband could not understand what was going on he was downstairs and I was upstairs in my closet praying. He came running up the stairs and asked what was wrong. I could not get many words out. I said: “Pray the devil wants to kill me.” We did spiritual warfare and rebuked the devil, bound him in the Name of Jesus and he let go of me. I did not give up. I fought him off until he fled. He also attacked me with many lies. He was telling me that I am not good enough and that Jesus would never use me and would not speak to me again. I am a failure. I will not be able to work in English (which is not my home language), not good enough. I had to resist him with the truth until he would flee from me. I was physically worn out, exhausted. I lost a lot of weight. I did not want to leave the house. But I never gave up, I endured through it all. I was never tested beyond what I was able to bear and Jesus was there all the time to help me to endure.
One night Jesus said He is going to show me how He sees people. He took me in the Spirit to my neighbors, who were living in sin and doing very bad things. Jesus showed me He loves them and wants them to repent and come to Him to have life. He showed me how He sees the sinners, with compassion and love, not like we often do with judgment. He really loves and cares for them and wants them to repent. He did not die in vain.
During that time, Jesus gave me different assignments to do. I had to warn many prominent preachers with whom He was not pleased. I had to write them a letter, which I did and then Jesus showed me in the spirit how they reacted when they received the warning messages. Then Jesus would tell me it will count against them in judgment day for not taking heed to the warnings, they will have no excuse.
I had to learn obedience through much suffering, to be bold and not fear any man. I used to be very shy and withdrawn. I would not speak in public. Jesus forced me to overcome my introvert nature. I had to learn English which is not my first language. Jesus told me to read the English Bible.
During that time Jesus also told me that we must do a rally “Baltimore for Jesus” and that we must hire the Raven’s stadium for it. We also had to go and witness for Jesus in the Inner harbor. My husband covered these things in his testimony “Living by faith.”
Then one night in 2006 Jesus called me and told me to start doing what I am doing, receiving and conveying daily messages from Him. He called me and He prepared me for Himself during that time. He purged and purified me, all for His glory, without Jesus we can do nothing. It is an ongoing process. Jesus decides and He changes us more and more into His likeness for His glory and purpose. We must just be willing to endure, press on and never give up. Jesus will never leave us nor forsake us but we can walk away, then it will be all in vain. We must be steadfast and determined, never give up on Jesus, because He will not fail us.